hungry

this time in my life is marked by a deep hunger, a craving for more intimacy with the Holy Spirit, more authroity and power in my life as a result of that intimacy. but i find that grasping and reaching for it doesn't work. i've tried, but now i realize, all over again, that it will never work. i have to be poised to receive. completely still, getting only what He gives freely.
but i wrestle with this anxiety that attacks my spirit, telling it to be busy. i want to be still, but i am not. i clean my room instead. what am i afraid of? why is it so hard to listen?

leaving...

i am about to leave lifeway... my last time as the student ministry publishing intern. i am so excited to come back to auburn... refreshed, renewed even. i am kind of surprised i am so sad to be leaving lifeway, but i am. it has been hard at times, but what a rich summer! He is faithful to the end.